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A sex-addict from NYC chaired today and really got me thinking.
I talked about what my Buddhism taught me about compulsion. How the main goal of Buddhism was to put the 'fire' out.
Dukkha Satya truth of pain
Samudaya Satya truth of causations
Nirodha Satya truth of cessiation
and The Arya Marga truth of the 8-fold path
How to 'know' you are enlightened is the main topic of the 3rd noble truth..Nirodha Satya. Nirvana has three main charactoristicts:

1. Adosa = no attachment
2. Adosa = no aversion
3. Amoha = no doubt
   

Translated into the language of modern behaviorism your reactions are beyond:
a) the avoidence of pain
b)the persuit of pleasure
c)the fear of change

The Monkey on your back has a whip AND a carrot, so you need to stop reacting to the carrot then the whip and then the chattering monkey.

You are either running away from your desires or towards them or vasilating inbetween somewhere. This applies to sex as well as drink/drugs which has always led me to suspect that Buddha might have been an alcoholic sex fiend, after all he started out as a prince sequestered in a pleasure palace!

Now later in my recovery I began to download all sorts of three-way porn compulsively, specifically male-male-female threesomes. This was probably just an exterior manifestation of an inner shift. Taz needed more behavoural latitude i.e. the need to behave with more receptivily, with more compassion, with more fluidity , more intuitivly, with more sensitivity etc.

Fantasizing a female partner to help me feel secure as I explored my receptive internal areas.

Exterior addictions and compulsions where suspicious reflections of some fundamental internal power shifts.

Desprately Seeking TAZ
One half trying to find and integrate with the other, using the world as a mirror to gain glimpses itself finally united.